pharmaceuticals, suffering
lack of sobriety
vyvanse and pregabalin for 2, 3, 4 days in a row
no more parenthesis in drug (ab)use
and somehow my psychiatrist who holds both an MD and a PhD
thinks this is a reasonable combination to take daily, forever
completely insane
a pharmaceutical speedball
somehow would be legal to still drive a car on.
an drug combo to consider medicinal...
unreasonable is not a strong enough word
though i know even personally a few heads
on even more extreme and dubious combinations.
modern psychiatry is mostly a sham
at least in the past drugs we marketed them as such: drugs
haven't heard? i can't attach a picture but go look this up
"barbiturate ad 1950s"
look at those functioning housewives!
now all our psych drugs: ssris, amphetamines, mood stabilizers
claim to simply restore a "disordered" patient
to pure normalcy
now we can all be normal!
i sure feel normal on 500 mg pregabalin and 35 mg lisdexamfetamine.
though diagnostic categorization can be helpful in certain contexts
especially for the more extreme disorders
schizophrenia, bipolar I, OCD, etc.
it classifies too many people into feeling diseased.
when in the past a patient may have come to therapy
saying something like
"i am shy and would like help opening up to people"
now they may say
"i have social anxiety disorder i need treated"
as if it's a parasite eating them from inside
or a disease that cannot be cured
forever broken
a person with a habit pattern that's very common
and definitely can be changed
now feels like they're broken
carrying a disease
feeling burnt out, though still extremely functional
a stable relationship of 6 years
multi instrumentalist
150k invested
in shape, regular exercise, sometimes skateboarding, bouldering
117 wpm typing speed
fashionable, i think
i read—as an adult!
sub 2 hr screen time
not even finding hollow knight silksong very hard
and a software engineering job—they're going to promote me
but few people understand the scope and scale
of extreme OCD and chronic pain with no clear source
though i try to explain it
even those with sincere intentions struggle to understand
when they haven't been here themselves
so many people suffering silently
another regular at my favorite coffee shop
told me recently that she got poisoned by carbon monoxide
and couldn't think for 2 years
until one day her brain "went back online" one day
probably this was mostly private suffering
and publicly didn't show many signs
my partner has idiopathic hypersomnia
an an eating disorder she keeps mostly in remission
only with active effort daily, hourly
and she wins awards
one in five of adults in the US suffer from chronic pain
and that's physical only
i bet at least half carry substantially suffering of some kind
so if you're in health
don't take it for granted.